my true nature

my hearts desire is to be honorable
but got damnit im human
sometimes wanting to retract into my original sin
as an excuse
and just be a
fucking ASS!!
i mean,
i know pride is of the devil
but for goddness sake its in the stars for me(leo)
and my name is a Narcissus(jonquil{lle} genus: Narcissus)
so what is one to do?
when it's through
when everything is through
the season
the year
the love
the reason
death be to fear
and treason
secrets told
and secrets sold
to friends of a friend
those secrets you hold
hoping never to be givin life again
but they have been
and will continue to be
you do her
and i do me
life experiences
leave me tall like the trees
full of growth
so give me more barley and oats
because only goodness comes into my temple
complexities
deep thinking
and selfless service
opposite of simple
instrumental
musics play in my ear
as i float on the notes
near
to my pain
meloncholy mood
and shelters from the rainstorms
as beautiful earthly forms
dance in my moonlight
*singin Me'Shell*
"beautiful angels come to my bed...
i'm satisfied on the flesh i've fed
no one is faithful"
and i am now hungry again

bless!

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