a.m thoughts...

drunken conversations
always lead to further contemplation of
"what the hell did i say last night?,
...i mean did we actually get in a fight?"
about what,
i really don't know
such a shame since the damaging wind continues to blow
and
grow
and
glow
BRIGHT
and i just wish good things for last night
my plight
as well as my intentions are good
contemplating current events
early with the birds
running through my body most uncomfortably like
overdue turds
so i guess I'll just breathe
DEEP
envelope myself in Sunday
won't pick up
can't spoil her that way
I've learned my lesson
can't add my greens to her dressing
ALL the time
right?
;)

yours truly

10-23-08

Good day all!
Today is good for me...didn't start the day how i should have...
prayer
reading word
meditating
...
damn that television...lol
but i did wake up a whole hour an a half earlier than i planned..which gave me an early start on the day
so now I'm out VA...(my future home..eeeek)...typing up my radio show proposal, brainstorming, applying for jobs, all the while eating a bowl of oats and sipping Chinese tea cause it's cold as a warlocks balls down here....lol

so despite the off track start..the Most High did see fit to put my mind in a productive place...and tomorrow it's me and the Most High in the morning!!!! oooow
give thanks!

be good good folks
Jonquille

this is a passage taken from "know Thyself" by Na'im Akbar...
now the actual passage is from a book called Husia written by Dr. Karenga...ok, check it out and just think on it...makes so much sense "

...GIVEN THE INSEPARABLE LINK IN ANCIENT EGYPT AND OTHER PARTS OF AFRICA BETWEEN THE SACRED AND SECULAR, THE ATTEMPT TO SEPARATE THEM MAKES LITTLE SENSE AND MEETS WITH EVEN LESS SUCCESS. THUS THE SAGES TEACH THEIR CHILDREN AND THE PEOPLE TO THINK MA AT(TRUTH JUSTICE & RIGHTEOUSNESS), SPEAK MA AT, AND DO MA AT IN SECULAR AND SACRED SITUATIONS. FOR THIS WILL NOT ONLY INSURE A MUTUALLY BENEFICIAL COMMUNITY BASED ON MA AT BUT ALSO EVERLASTING LIFE."

absolute beauty!!!
i wan live forever!!!
your thoughts...

untitled...

The night is never long enough as long as you re in my arms
Haunted by the thought of rays kissing my cheeks
Instead of your lips so sweet
My sweet
Private escape
Every night I sail with you
To places far beyond imagination
And far beyond physical stimulation
You tickle my being
Beyond you my dear
there is no seeing
only freeing
energies intense and deep
reach for me
create melodic speech for me
stomp your feet
clap your hands
and preach for me
for only you can take me to heaven

copyright2008

Love Lock Down freetype

forward:i wrote this the day after the '08 VMAs...free type so to speak...didn't finish but it was burning a hole in my wallet (where i keep my rhymes and money..lol) so enjoy...

when your love's locked down
you lose
you lose
you lose
you fools
use tools
defense mechanisms
and conspiracy schools
where i go to challenge the lie
and break the rules
because no one is supposed to hear it right?
but we all sit a fear it right?
love locked down bearing no light
___________________ (addition)
check my destined plight
give salt to the bland
sharing my light
bright
much bright-
er than the sun
you evil ones
stop and stare
wondering how such strength can reside in a single
lock of my hair
yet you choose not to care
living your lives
jaded by the dream
the American one that is
perpetuating lies
feeding toxins to your kids
man go fig
i goes deep
like the dig
dig me?!?!

copyright 2008

thoughts of a peaceful mind for the informed and enlightened ones, we all know that everything happens for a reason... you meet people for a reason, you miss flights for a reason, you make it to your appointment and meet the person who is going to take your business to the next level for a reason, you wreck your car for a reason...all of that in life , the thinker would sit back and say...what are these reasons...have i learned a lesson? have i changed something in me for the better? Has this all been for naught? life happens and life happens i am in a stage of contemplation about what all of these happenings mean... why were we us? why cant she understand? why is every one passing away? why am i still here? why do i act the way i do? why why why.... i look inward to the divinity inside for help and answers... and to the sky from which comes my help as well... critical thinking is an asset in these days of quick, now, fast, instant gratification,i want what i want all the time and now,and the tv told me so, type society... i strive to be a person of merit and love...and take lessons from all that i encounter...stand back and observe situations others might be too blinded , jaded, or clouded to see... i strive to be a person who brings a wealth of positivity into the room when i enter and folks just cant help but to feel what i (and those like me ) bring and bask in its beauty (the beauty of bringing peace and positivity) i just strive to lead by serving....because giving of self and doing for others feels beyond good...it is a peace only the Most High can give...and i want it all but in giving of self...i struggle to not give of self and expect anything back(specifically with people who are close to me and on a higher level than just acquaintances)...i do not give to receive at all, do not get me wrong...but i just belive in reciprocity, and balance...and receiving back would only be right....therefore i am exercising patience and listening for direction because i wish not to feel used, abused, taken for granted, and chumped...those negative feelings shouldn't be prevalent in a situation such as that....so for patience and understanding i pray thoughts of a poetic mind... be peace all! HELLO WORLD wow, this thing called life...very interesting it is...new people, new days, new life, new energies...newness seems to be everlasting and the old fades away..it is not wise to wish for the past and long for yesterday..but make your tomorrows better than today if the most high sees fit to bring a tomorrow your way..until then carpe Diem..cease the day... ************************************************************************************